Why I’m not ranting more right now
It’s a weird time right now, and I’m reminded of something that’s come and gone a lot for me in the last year – why I’m not more outraged about women’s cycling.
So, it’s the Tour Down Under in Australia. When they announced this, and Cadel’s race, I was really pissed off that they weren’t UCI races, and that there are no UCI races at all in Australia, so their riders have to go overseas to get points to qualify for the Worlds and Olympics (and it’s SO much more expensive for Aussies to get to UCI races than eg for Brits). And now there’s a ton of conversation on twitter about how outrageous it is that there’s no live coverage of the women’s race, while the men’s race is bigged up everywhere.
And I agree, absolutely I agree, but I’m in this strange place right now. It’s January, I have my usual SAD and life has been punching me in the face this month. I’m exhausted, and I’ve got to that stage where getting angry about cycling doesn’t help me, it just makes me feel worse. And honestly, I don’t know what I can do about it. I’ve been writing about women’s cycling for years, and I still don’t know how to effect the slightest change. So I’m focusing on pulling together posts of videos and photos and such, and celebrating what we have, because right now, that’s what I can do.
But by doing this, am I part of the problem? Am I letting races off the hook and pretending everything’s A-OK? Have I been dragged down into accepting how things are when I should be speaking up and using my tiny corner of the internet to call for more? I just don’t know. When I pull together video posts, it’s to promote what we do have, but am I papering over cracks? I honestly don’t know, and of course the overthinking doesn’t help. I guess the fact I’m not doing the podcasts with Dan, while he’s taking the winter off, means I’m not having that regular ranting spot that helped me, because it was in the context of a wider conversation, so it wasn’t just focusing on negatives.
Anyway. If you have thoughts, let me know – and if anyone wants to write a guest blog with the videos of the Tour Femenino de San Luis in them, I’d love that too. I didn’t have the energy to follow that race, and check out the videos there are, it was really easy to. I’m gutted I missed it, but real life etc…